3 kids? in this economy?

We decided 2 was enough. I had always pictured having 3 kids, but we were perfectly content with 2. We lived in a small house, there wouldn’t be room for another. and plus, 3 kids, in this economy?! “2 was plenty” I kept telling myself. My husband and I were both torn but ultimately agreed. Our 2 healthy, happy boys- we are so grateful.

True to my postpartum energy I got rid of ALL the baby stuff. Our nice stroller, all the clothes, all the things.

My best friend is the renowned psychic medium Anna Blossom, and when I told her we decided to stop with 2 kids her face looked confused and doubtful. “Oh really? I always thought you would have 3!” But I assured her that we decided. We were done.

But then on a walk to my favorite river spot, a For Sale sign. On a house on my dream street down the street from the river. A quiet street, huge windows, plush carpet, fireplace. And another bedroom.

I won’t get into the dozens of magical things that aligned for us to get this house, but it was jaw dropping how all the pieces fit together and we got to buy this dream house.

Fast forward a year in our new spot and something feels like its missing. I feel a baby’s spirit with us. It feels patient, receptive but determined. It is supposed to be with us.

I told my husband and he admits that he doesn’t feel done either. Like our family doesn’t feel complete. We sit with this decision for many months until we decide- we want this little soul who wants to be with us.

Looking at my calendar and cycle I see we are way outside the fertile window and will start trying next month. What happens next gives me goosebumps to this day.

EVERY single client I had at that time, I think it was 6 or so 1:1 clients, fell away. All for different reasons. One at a time all my responsibilities fell away and I found myself with ZERO clients. This has never happened to me in my 7 years of having this business. I had tickets to a business conference in Palm Springs that weekend, so I got on a plane for my first ever trip away from my kids with my best biz friends for a super fun trip!

On this trip my friend Marli led us in Hot Tub Time Machine, where we all pretend we are ourselves, 5 years in future. When it was my turn, along with all the other visions that came through, I pictured myself with 3 kids. I said it out-loud for the first time ever. It felt right. Anna winked at me from across the jacuzzi.

Home from the whirlwind of a trip, getting back into the rhythm of parenting and marketing to find new clients, I was supposed to get my period. Late, late, late again. I took a pregnancy test. I was already pregnant! It almost seemed impossible given the timing of everything, but it happened! This little soul was so ready we just had to say the word and he joined our family. I laughed and wondered if he had anything to do with all my clients falling away. Or to getting this house so that we had space for him. “Powerful little one” I thought.

Fast forward to last month, baby Aiden is 1 month old and we are having the coziest time together as a family of 5. We feel complete like he was always meant to be with us. And I get a text that an opportunity arose and I could get out of my lease at my beautiful office space if I wanted. “Huh?! No! I love that space!” was my initial response, but after thinking it through, I would be so much more flexible without being tied to a physical space. I have a home office anyway, and so much of my work is on zoom, maybe I could let it go! And just like that, I was moving out of my office, saving tons of time commuting and tons money.

A month later I am getting ready to go back to 3 clients I have booked for my first week back from maternity leave. It felt bittersweet, but I was ready to use my brain again. One by one, each of these clients emails me cancelling our engagements. For all different reasons, none in my control. Again this has never happened to me in my 7 years of having this business. WHAT ON EARTH?! I laugh and shake my head in disbelief. “This little guy has different plans I guess!”

So I am moving forward from this moment with little attachment to my plans or outcomes. I have had many super aligned clients come through since then and I am trusting the process. Do you want to work together in 2025 to grow your business without burning out? If so, you will have to go through baby Aiden.